Let the journey be shaped by the curiousity of the child…
It is just a thought that comes to mind. How time flies. And while everything changes, everything stays the same as well.
I would have been pregnant for 29 weeks right now. And it feels like I have been pregnant forever. You might wonder why I feel this way, since I had a miscarriage in February. It is like this clock, that still continues in my head. Is is still ticking. Counting the weeks, up till week 40.
And another clock has appeared. Counting back and looking at the calendar, that clock started 20 weeks ago. Right after I had the miscarriage. There is a difference of 9 weeks between those clocks. One is a sad clock with a spirit saying hello and goodbye at the same time and than there is the other clock. A happy clock with a spirit saying hello. He or she is saying hello!
I am scared to say it out loud. Afraid that this spirit will also decide to leave. And in the meantime I know there is nothing I can do, if this is what will happen, to prevent it. But for the moment, everything seems fine. I think, today for the first time, I feel a bit more relaxed and I dare to say it out loud. I am pregnant!